Catching Thoughts

At the moment my mind is so open to so many new ideas and thoughts that I literally can't make sense of most of what I'm experiencing.

I'm in between rash decisions and too much thinking things over, which leads to this awful anxiety and numbness and not knowing what I'm "supposed" to think or feel.

I have so many huge thoughts right now that I think I'm going to burst. Ironically they have nothing to do with anything I'm studying. Forget university.. I haven't thought about my studies for such a long time. Those are things I'm lacking serious interest for right now. And they seem so unimportant... actually completely stupid, right now.

Well for some reason there is this annoying hole in my mind, sort of like my next move in my life, my decision. The annoying part is that I'm not sure how to fill it. There are too many options. So I made myself a picture- this time it's really just for me and my mind. A shell for me to fill with my decision. The good thing about this picture is that I can always change what I'm filling the shell with. It's set in New Mexico... or maybe Colorado... somewhere where I can think.